Gracious Gratitude

There were times when I wanted to understand everything. Why something goes wrong and how did something go right? Reasoning and pre activity statistics was a must! Who, why, what time, how much time? Over time I realised that this is one of the easiest way to kill an experience, be it familiar or brand new. To know something prior to an event and that unnecessary eagerness to have every detail to satiate the child in me or the ego would eventually ruin my experience as when I was actually present in the moment that I was looking forward to, I noticed to have entered with an already strong decided opinion about something that eventually blocks any new experiences! It was such a tiny part of the character but turned out to be very difficult to detect.

Now, anything scheduled or any event of the future has me not wanting to know anything about it unless necessary. The approach to look at everything as new absolutely fragrances the mind and there are no ‘unexpected events’ as there are no expectations at all. Looking at everything afresh is alot more fulfilling and pretty.🎖

A revisit

After almost a year of not writing I realised the effects to leave something you were once passionate about. I wish to retreat back with and to life. I’m sure, it’s never too late.

There will come a day when all your knowledge about self love and positivity will flow down the drain. It just does not feel as easy to implement as we once thought. A prolonged pressure to stay positive sometimes feel like a force and you just want to feel your downside for a bit. Yes, the mind likes to look to be in trouble but you just need to stay with what you’re feeling sometimes and it’s OKAY. To address a gap will eventually make you aware to fill it but RIGHTLY. Take your time, take the space, understand the mind and pull it back if it wanders towards anything against the universe. This may unsettle the ones and the situations around you but if you’re able to address it, you will be able to solve it eventually, without trying it’ll all fall and place. 🏳

Retract

One day the people around us, including the ones that are a part of our family would no longer hold the position they used to in our hearts. Be as it may, one of the wisest things learnt is that a relationship does not need to be valuable only because it was around for a significant amount time. The world has sadly made an impression that do not be ungrateful to the people who raised you, were with you at some point and stood by you when you felt lost. This is not an automatic reason to bear toxicity. Comfortable misery is also misery. Knowing they are a certain way and yet taking it makes us no different than them. Toxic is toxic. No amount of time, support or momentary instance of “closeness” takes over an attitude of negative energy. We’re souls existing in this divine space alone and shall leave exactly the same way. We have a journey of our own that requires us to be at peace and as we deliberately work towards creating a better space for ourselves, nothing else or nobody else shall have the privilege to break it down. Losing respect is ok, losing contact and connection with someone who has not shown you respect is OKAY. We’re responsible for our peace and health. It’s also ok if nobody understands this! Detach for the good.💚

Fancy yearn

Have you ever noticed when things that we feel we want so bad at this very moment but when it actually happens, you don’t feel like you want it anymore? Because it took too much time or maybe we’ve imagined it so many times in our head how achieving it would feel like and the different ways to approached it in our imagination? When this happens, it does not mean you didn’t really want it. It’s a play to make us sometimes realise that maybe we do not need it after all and having it fulfilled may not have been as fruitful as we imagined. Something that does not come your way even if you feel you’ve wanted it once is the universe’s way to guide you towards something else. Anything that you do not wilfully manifest and “want” would most likely never come your way as that’s a force and that NEVER works out. However when we wish for something, patience and trust must always be the driving force of it. Giving up, forcing it or even crying over it is a sign that its something that needs no space in your life. Manifestation indeed works! Nobody ever knows when but it always will. Wish and want are really two very smoothly contrasting terms. 🌸

Transit

Since we were young, life has always made sure to present us with varied circumstances from time to time. It’s only now that we think about it so much and sometimes are so bothered if things do not go the way it always has. A child irrespective always has a default approach to every single day. Not once when I was young I can remember worrying about something not happening like it happened for a specific period of time. It took merely a few moments to register and accept yourself. Only if we had the intellect to understand this, we may have consciously adopted it for the future. Now as I see it this way, it seems easier and less scary! Not everything needs a meaning or a reason, it’s at times simply to process and ultimately accept what’s now rather than sitting grumpy for unnecessary demands. Basically, the more you know, the more you tend to complicate yourself. It’s easier than ever, it’s the same younger you but now with a tinge of wisdom.🧚‍♀️

Still strong!

One of the greatest joys of life is to realise the kind of person you are turning into. There’s always a moment when we can predict the personality we will hold atleast for a certain period of time in the future. This person may be strong headed or extremely weak hearted. I feel both these emotions have a sense of strength. They both are in their own ways reasonable during certain situations. As being someone who has experienced both, there has never been a moment when i felt the need to increase or decrease the intensity of either which certainly felt like a gift. I feel grateful for being able to deeply still feel every emotion. The essence of feeling and expressing both hard and soft emotions are a gift. So whatever is felt, irrespective of a reaction or situation, go ahead and put it out. If nobody, it will always leave YOU fulfilled. 🌟

Distaste

There are going to come those days where the universe will present you with something absolutely disturbing and disastrous. It will make you sick and distressed to the core and you may just sit and wonder, WHY? What could possibly be good about this? It will haunt you for a few days and not remembering it would feel like an uncontrollable emotion. Being one hardcore believer of the universe’s play, I want to trust it for even presenting something unpleasant out of nowhere. It will not be just to show it or myself that look, I’m okay! You’re wanting to be fine but that would never work because it has happened for you to feel this now. Not just grief, but something will reveal itself soon. With pullbacks, it’s always essential to realise that wisdom just does not come by spending days casually and experiencing something good. It’s these times that will count and you will remember forever (as an instance of growth). It maybe very difficult to see right now, but I guess, let’s hang in there and let happen what has to. The universe is NEVER wrong. Courage and strength are in process.

Activate

There are times when you just don’t understand why something happens. Why out of the blue a thought pops up? Why does an unknown opportunity visit? Why does an unknown wish settle? Something you didn’t want to do once is now what you’re suddenly seeking gracefully. Does it ever occur that an unpleasant emotion may also lead you towards an emerging beautiful desire? What it means is sometimes an emotion you’re bothered with drives you towards your reality. A bothered self is a deep embedded hollow that emerges to the surface when triggered. Lately, instead of letting it have the worst of me, I am able to make use of it to unleash the better side. Triggers can be used to reveal a better part of us! And the best part of it? As we feel better, the trigger will mysteriously disappear. So I realise, facing triggers may not always have to be painful if we see better, we can make so much use of it. ♾

Afresh!

A transition in life will always require a hard decision. This is something I’ve always heard but never thought would be applicable anytime soon. All what’s required is the first step and you would never want to stop thereafter. It was unlikely for something to be uncomfortable yet satisfying. A blend of contrasting feelings is something that does not come that often but when it does, you know you’re on the right path. This path seems inspiring and somehow you know you’re ready to face it all to reach a place you can see from here. A change is being made and it’s beautiful.

GRACE

Between all the superficial needs, we almost always forget to pay gratitude for what already exists. It is when you truly let go of wanting what’s not there, an unexplainable energy will drive you towards the blessings we have around us. This is when we realise the thin line between what’s important and what’s not. Something that you don’t need will always appear disguised as an angel showing that life is only perfect if you run after fulfilling every thought we have. Not every thought needs to be catered and it’s okay not get things once in a while because that’s the universe’s way to remind you about the valuable gems that are around us. Always treasure that exists because that is what will keep you driven and grounded. ❤